After a few more days in school at orientation I have mixed feelings. In high school I was branded as quiet, shy, and some sort of gaming nerd. Now that college has started I can reinvent myself and become whatever I want basically. I *want* to be someone who is socialable and someone who girls actually notice instead of see through. This, in my opinion, is a very hard goal to achieve especially with the limited amount of females here (seriously, there is ONE in my whole entire major this year). While I've been forcing myself to talk to anyone who will listen to me I've made little progress. Few of the people in my orientation "team" even talk about normal things and most girls don't even help the conversation at all. Basically, I'd say I made two "friends", and by friends I mean people who actually talk to me more than once. I did actually find someone normal in my computer science group to talk to and he's pretty cool and one of the girls in Biology who lives in the same dorm is also friendly.

I was excited for college because I could create a different me and meet a lot of different people than I've seen at our small high school. I've done the stuff I should have done - leave my door open, go to social events, and created conversation with people around me. I suppose you could say I have many aquantainces around the campus. Could this be because classes haven't actually started and I don't see the same people every day? Possibly. I'll need to wait and see once they start next Monday I guess.

While I'll try and keep up the things I am doing it is obviously discouraging. I'd rather be over at a new friend's dorm room doing something instead of sitting here typing while I'm wasting time.

Orientation is getting to be very irritating. Today was by far the most busy day. We had to discuss Frankenstein early in the day and then had two "team meetings" throughout the rest of the day. Included in that mix was some health talk, diversity speech, and job/career speech. We had small breaks in between things for meals.

The team meeting are horrible. I've always wanted to be a computer science or computer science related major since the start of high school but after seeing the people in the same major it almost makes me want to change or something. Almost all of them have a very strange look to them. Who knows, maybe I do too and I don't notice it :). Almost all of them also crack really stupid jokes - and they all laugh. I've only been here a few days and I've already heard many jokes with compuer science majors at the center of the joke - kinda sad really.

Overall, I guess I'm enjoying my time here. My days usually begin very well and as the day goes on and people talk to me less and less the day seems to get worse.